Control

God has control over the entire universe and everything in it. This is a mind blowing concept. Do we really believe it? Well, today I discovered an even more fascinating detail of the car accident on October 15th. While engaged in conversation with the mother of the young man whose car was sitting to the right of mine the day of the accident, she shared her heart with me and proceeded to tell me that weeks prior to the incident her heart was burdened. She brought her cares to a large number of people including close friends and her Bible study group. She said she was very concerned for her son and had specifically asked these people to pray for him. Her heart had been heavy for many weeks. When I shared with her what was laid upon my heart being prompted to pray for protection even a week or more before the accident, it became very clear to me how real the Holy Spirit is and how the Spirit intervenes even before we really know our own needs. This gave my entire body chills all over today several times. This is really refreshing and comforting to think God showered his blessing of protection over both of us and cleared the way for the accident to occur without harm to either one of us. When I received the report back, it clearly defined where each car was located. As she also mentioned today, if I would have pulled to the white line, her son too would have probably been crushed and killed as well. There would have been no way for him to survive with that kind of impact because this car also landed just feet from him (actually next to him, where I was supposed to be.) Her proclamation of thanksgiving went back out to all of those who had prayed for her son with a picture of the accident. I learned in the most miraculous way the power of prayer within the body of believers and how each one mattered for this occasion. My faith has grown today in a different way regarding God's provision for both of us and how it was orchestrated; because even though I realized it was a true miracle; by witnessing all of the debris, car engine and remains of the car, I now realize it was the body of Christ praying beforehand for protection. This gives me complete and utter assurance who is really in control.

Passion

I love English proverbs. My new favorite is "never put off until tomorrow what you can do today." Recently, many thoughts have been entering my mind regarding what I thought could be attained or accomplished by the time I turned 40. With the internet and all of its various sources, skies the limit right? Well, for many years I think assumptions were clearly made in my mind that tomorrow will come and I will have time. My first priority has always been to be here for my children. They come first, and I will have time later to pursue my dreams and passions. My thoughts have been challenged lately, and I am wondering what exactly are my dreams and passion? Do I still have dreams and passion? If so, what are they and how can I seek to fulfill the desires that have been inbedded in my heart? After studying the Bible for close to 15 years, God has made very clear my number one passion is to tell others of his great love for them and to give them hope for a future. At heart, I would love to be a missionary. However, this mindset needs to start in the home and thanks to many amazing women who put value on the role, I have been able to have confidence motherhood is making a difference in their lives and the lives of their friends now and later. I feel that I have set my priorities straight by being here first and foremost for my children to teach them right from wrong and to be servant leaders in every capacity, whether at home or in the classroom or on the field in sports. Looking back over the past 15 years, I really don't really have any regrets. I have been doing what is most valuable and most important - instilling great biblical principles and values in their hearts for kingdom service which is the highest calling and utmost privilege a human being can have. I am delighted to say these years have been the most enriching years of my life, and I am so blessed and fortunate God have me an opportunity to experience motherhood. Hopefully, there will be many possibilities to share stories of the great miracles and testimonies of those who have come to faith and how they have walked despite hardship and challenge.